Both out of reach at the moment.
One has a set time on when, initially.
The other does not.
So what am I doing?
I have no idea.
But would we even call these "options", options?
Or just possibilities.
I think that fits more.
Alright, possibilities.
Patience is definitely a virtue. And is it bad that, after everything that's happened, I'm getting a little impatient?
I can't help but wonder what is going to happen. When I'm lying in bed at night or just having a minute to myself to relax, it consumes my mind. Who? When? Where? It scares me. What if I miss my chance? My shot? I better not let that happen.
And that is why I'm doing things the way I am. I'm keeping a level head. I'm being open to new ideas and new people. I'm taking "come what may and love it" to a whole new level in my life. I have to. It's the only way to get through and be who and what I need to be.
So would we call these moments where the unknown scares the crap out of me, weakness?
Maybe.
Or just natural?
Probably.
Who knows.
But for right now, I have wonderful friends that need me, a loving family to look after, and a ton of school work to keep up with.
And overall,
I'm happy.
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