Sunday, February 27, 2011

ventventventventvent.

Yes, I'm behind on my 30 day challenge, but in my defense, this past weekend was INSANE. So much going on with the Redeemer and life. Wahh!!
But there are a couple things I definitely need to vent about right now....

First of all, I hate the ignorance of some people. I just...gah. I don't understand how arrogant and ignorant people can be. What happened to consideration and respect? Actually acknowledging that you are NOT the only person on the planet? The world doesn't revolve around you? There could be a chance that you don't get the trophy? I try my hardest to be realistic and considerate of all outcomes of anything. And I'm sorry, but this is just ridiculous. Namely, I'm speaking of one person, but lately I feel like anyone, even the tiniest bit involved, ain't helping nothin'.

Do they understand how...twisted this WHOLE ordeal is? Of course they don't. They have no idea what kind of hell I have been through. I just don't understand these certain relationship[s]. I simply do NOT understand it. Nor do I want to.

I know I have what it takes. Hell, if I've put up with this ignorance and immaturity for THIS long, surely, I can do it. I just wish people would at least try to understand where I'm coming from. It's quite annoying. They certainly have picked a team though, that's for sure. Too bad the "game" is a long way away.

Sometimes, I just wish they knew.
But then I remember...it's my secret to keep. It's my heaven, my relief. I have something special. In many different ways. I know I do. And that's what's keeping me here. The hope, faith, and trust in things turning out the way they are supposed to. I know things will be for the better, I know they will. I just wish it was easier to deal with right now.

My best friend was right.
"It's how you endure the trials, that makes you the person you are meant to be. You got this."
That goes for anything, and I'm definitely holding on to that at this point in my life.


Just venting. Nothing to be taken personal. Just venting.


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