Blog? What?

I don't normally do stuff like this. But due to me not being able to keep a journal, I figured I'd give this a shot. Journals are hard for me because I always get so wrapped up in everything else, I forget to write it down. Being in college, you pretty much live on your computer. So maybe this will be easier? Ha. We'll see.

I will start out by saying this, though.

I love my life.
Nothing is perfect. It's chaotic. It has its major ups, and major downs. I change my mind a lot. I hate change. I love the people I'm around. I wish I had a bigger impact on most. I give good advice. I don't take my own advice. I believe in service. I believe in Christ. I know His hand is in everything I will ever do, & He will help me become who I'm destined to be. I meet people, and try to show that I care instantly. I try to bring people up when they are down. I've been through a lot of problems, and I know that in my 19 years, it's only the beginning.

Sometimes its hard to see how beautiful and amazing life actually is. Trials and obstacles can get in the way of that, and sometimes I lose sight on what really matters. I don't call it being "immature" or "too young to understand", I call it being human. Nobody is perfect, and I don't expect people to see me trying to be perfect. I'm not. I'll come right out and say it.

I try to be a better person. I try to surround myself with people that make me want to be a better person. A group of people started my discoveries of myself a couple years ago, and I have succeeded moreso this past year. I have found someone that makes me want to be a better person in all I do. "Looking up to them" doesn't even suffice.

I'll end by saying...

I believe in people and friendship. I always give them the benefit of the doubt. I try very hard to be quick in forgiving and slow in taking offense. Sometimes that goal gets the better of me, though. But at least I try.

My friends have made me who I am today. For that, I'm eternally grateful. I know that my Heavenly Father has put them in my path for me to grow and learn. I take pieces of them with me wherever I go. They leave handprints on my heart; like handprints in wet concrete that dries over time. I can't thank Him enough for all of the problems I've faced in the past, for all of the heartbreak, joy, and love I've felt in my short life thusfar. I have picked out the weeds, and kept my flowers. And there they will stay until it's time for them to go.

"There is nothing on this earth more to be prized than true friendship."
-Sir Thomas Aquinas